2nd-Homesickness 

I’m homesick… for Holland, MI. For my house there, for the people, for my dear dear friends. Funny ah? I was looking through pictures of my housemates and just longing to be with them, back in my green room in our rented house. Just missed the laughter, the weird conversations we would have and the games we played. It is different being at home. I miss just going over to K’s room to randomly bug her. I miss going over the B’s room to have “intellectual” conversations (intellectual on his end, me just laughing and striving to follow mentally).

My family has commented that I talk about my friends a lot and that I have become very Americanized. I talk too loud, talk too much, my mannerism is too bold, I walk so much slower now, etc… So the feat that I’m coming up against is to lose a bit of the American girl in me and regain more of the Asian one. It’s in there somewhere. I know it is!! Well… at least I hope so! But I also don’t want to revert back totally to me before I went to college. I like how I’ve grown and who I’ve become. I just need to figure out how to integrate it fully. I never had to, until now. Over the last 2 years I’ve been keeping the two parts separate. I’m Asian when I come home and when I’m with my dad. I’m Americanized when I’m in school and with my friends. New challenge!

Oh, but I am enjoying all the yummmmyyyyy food I missed. In that aspect, I was always the Asian girl. Sorry guys, but I don’t really miss the food in the States. lol.

Well, I would love to hear from some of you, not just because I email you or stalk you in messenger! hehehe! Come come! Talk to me! Help me with my 2nd-homesickness!

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