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Finally Moving On…
By TransitionGirl | July 30, 2008
Integrating back to Singapore life has been almost a year’s journey. Many times I’ve wished I was back in the US, wished I was still studying, wished I wasn’t back in Singapore. Sometimes, I would even get angry at God for making me come back.
Singapore isn’t perfect and I do not agree with the path the government is leading Singapore on. I think Singapore is deteriorating socially and morally, even while we are prospering economically. I do not agree with the 2 casinos the government is building, and can already see the damage it is doing to the people and families. I do not like how the next generation has no respect and consideration for others, but has become selfish and money-minded.
However, this is my home, my country, nonetheless. And I’ve finally come to a point where I have accepted that I’m home, and actually do not want to go back to the States. That was a different part of my life, one that I’m grateful for, but one that has passed.
What made me realise this was the time I spent bringing a college friend around Singapore and Malacca, Malaysia. While this week has been fun and a good break from work, I’ve realised that I’ve changed a lot and have very little in common with my US friend. Past conversations that could go on for hours are no more interesting or of value for me. I am tired of the superficial and shallow conversations that I once enjoyed. I’ve already realised that I’ve become more of a loner, more contented to be by myself instead of needing others around. I find myself getting more and more annoyed easily towards the end of the week because of a constant presence next to me wherever I go. I find myself yearning for alone time, a space that I can just have quiet and do whatever I want.
So, I’m glad I’ve finally seen the changes and I can finally move on once and for all. Yes I’ll remember the past stage of my life fondly, but the me has changed and I am in a different part of my life, all ready to move on and let the past be fond memories.
Topics: Thoughts, Transitions |
July 30th, 2008 at 11:13 pm
Hey! It’s always good to move on and be content where God has you:)
((hugs))
Lizzie
August 1st, 2008 at 10:44 am
You’ve had a life changing journey this past year! That is amazing!
August 15th, 2008 at 12:45 pm
It should be interesting to see what the Lord has for you in this new season….Sometimes when we start looking for the “good stuff” in our days we can begin to see God’s hand at work in us. It sounds like you are coming to terms with God’s plan for you during this season….I pray that you find peace and joy in you life back home!!
BTW thanks for stopping by my blog!
Have a blessed day!