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Work has been rough. And it’s more to do with my current attitude towards work than any other factor.

I’m tired and annoyed at it. It’s not what I wanted it to be nor envisioned. The work I’m doing… to me, they are meaningless and just “busy work”, with no real impact on people’s lives. Just self-promotion… but then again, I’m in corporate communications, so it’s basically just that.

Maybe I’m becoming disillusioned… or reality is setting in? Maybe this is the process every new job entrant faces? I’ve gotten sick and tired of my work… and it’s beginning to show. Not a good thing. I have to beg the Lord for better control, a change of attitude, and a not so critical heart.

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05April2009

A Simple Note

Just dropping by to let you all know I’m still alive! Been busy with work etc etc… but that’s just an excuse, most of the time.

The real reason for my lack of blogging? Sheer laziness. Yup! I’ve been too lazy to blog. Sure I’m been swamped with work, but if I really wanted to, I would have blogged.

Plus, I’ve got nothing to say, just like this post. If you’ve read this far…. sorry for wasting your time! :P

But, I do have one great news! In about a week’s time, I’m flying to the UK and Paris for a wonderful family vacation… and I’m darn excited! WOHOOOO!!!

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25February2009

Thanking the Barnabas

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Recently, a dear blog friend, Lizzie, gave me this Barnabas award. Wow! Thanks!

Truth be told, giving or helping others makes me feel good. I’m happy when I can help someone, no matter how tiny. And sometimes I wonder if I give because it makes me feel good, or if it’s because it’s part of the Lord’s calling for me. Maybe both?

Anyway, I’ve thought about this for a while and I’ve finally decided who I wanna pass this award on to.

1. My amazing mom, dad and brother

2. Lizzie (yes, I’m giving it back to her.) I just enjoy talking to her. It encourages me, lifts me up, makes me smile.

3. Grace. Her advice, her motherly-ness, kindness. Amazing!!

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Sorry for the MIA. Been battling a corporation and getting more and more annoyed by my government. So, I’ve been contemplating whether to post about these, since I’m working for the Singapore government and I don’t know if they’ll try to “rein me in” since they don’t like their “workers” to think critically. But what the heck. Their brainwashing doesn’t work on me.

Well, evil corporation, aka Starhub. Let’s see, they have failed in providing reliable internet service for the last month. Almost every other day, from 10:30pm to midnight (and other erratic times) we lose all connection to the internet. One moment it works, the next it’s dead. Every time it dies, every time we call their “customer service”, which is debatable whether it really is service at all. They always give the same excuses as to why it’s not their fault.

1. It’s your router problem (Nope, unless two very expensive high end routers happen to both be spoilt now yet work on other networks)

2. It’s your computer settings problem (Nope, my brother, the computer genius, sets everything for optimal performance and less barriers for speed)

3. It’s your eternet cable problem (Now this is the lamest excuse ever and we’ve used multiple cables to prove to them otherwise)

4. Only detecting “small package losses” (yet somehow these losses end up in a total cut. which leads me to wonder what they label as big losses? The whole Singapore is cut off?!)

So after numerous times of being nice, yet being talked down to or treated like an idiot or facing a barrier of excuses, I decided to get tougher. Meaning, the minute they start their same routine, I cut them off, talk to them firmly that their excuses aren’t working and they darn well solve my problem if not I’ll pursue this matter as high as I can. You see, unlike numerous other Singaporeans who only complain but don’t have the guts and determination to actually DO something about it, I don’t quit when I know I’m being shortchanged and bullied by some corporation who think they can get away with not fulfilling their contract terms.

Also from my brother and my own investigations, one possible cause for the problem is that Starhub’s infrastructure is being overloaded. With the sudden influx of customers for digital voice (which uses the same lines as their cable internet), they find their network and infrastructure maxed out. And yet, they don’t want to upgrade their aging & limited systems because they want to show high profits to their shareholders. And in typical Singapore fashion, big companies almost ALWAYS get away with bullying and underservicing their customers… I mean, who can blame them? They just learn it from the CEOs of Singapore Inc. (aka the govt).

As to cringing at what my government said, well, while I disagree with making mean-spirited comments, the question they should be asking is why so many people hate or are unsupportive of them. Maybe it’s something to do with the fact that throwing money at citizens isn’t going to make them love you. Actually caring and making regulations FOR all the people and not AGAINST the people (or just for the rich & elites) is more important. Oh and you’re “disappointed”? Do we even care about your “approval” of us? Or should we be regulating that? Oh and the way he said that speech? Pure elitism oozing out of his every word.

Sorry, I’m majorly annoyed right now.

Note: Now that I’ve come down a tad, here’s my more logical thoughts on the internet comments by RADM(NS) Lui.

1. He obviously doesn’t understand the culture of forum users. The reason why most didn’t respond to their mean-spirited comments? Because most ignored it. In the internet forum culture, it’s not what type of responses you get. It’s HOW MANY you get. If it’s stupid, most wouldn’t want to help “publicise” the stupidity by bumping up the post.

2. Next, in forums, the replies are not linear in response. One reply doesn’t mean it’s in direct response to the one before. And sometimes it doesn’t make sense until you read the FIRST post and then link to what replies were talking about, or the post before it (much easier than it sounds).

3. This also brings up the issue on HOW Lui is reading these posts. From my experience, usually the tracking software comes up with a lot of hits, say 1000. A lower ranking staff member sieves through it to extract what he/she deems appropriate or useful. Then the next level person does the same. Eventually, after 3 or 4 rounds of sieving and narrowing it down, the “best” posts, maybe only 50, are sent to the top level guy to read. In this long process, things are lost, contexts are lost. Results? The top guys sees what his staff what him to see. Maybe that’s why Obama fought so hard to keep his blackberry. The higher up you up, the more alienated and closed-in you are from the ground. You need to be personally savvy and pro-active in following the news / trends by yourself, without depending on others to pass you selected information, without the big picture.

4. The internet is a place for people to vent, especially in countries where the mainstream media is so “buddy” with the government. So they vent, saying stupid things that they wouldn’t dare to say out loud. And most of the time, they don’t mean them or they know they are just talking nonsense. No one puts much weight into these comments… well, except the government or people who take everything too seriously.

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17January2009

A walk down memory lane

So my mom found a bunch of old pictures in a drawer somewhere and we had a few giggles and laughs over how we looked. So, to share the joy of old photos (and the horror of the outfits), here’s me through the ages. (Pls note, I’m not exactly sure how old I was in most pics. So it’s mainly a guess.)


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My failed aspiration of being a tennis player.


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My “Uh? What? Who?” confused look. It’s an art.


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“Hm… I’m tasty!”


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My angst teenage years


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“I’m sleepppppyyy”

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As a plus size woman, I’ve gotten my fair share of criticisms, insults and ‘well-meaning advice’ from my relatives all the way to a random taxi driver.

Over the years, I’ve learnt how to ignore them or insult the person back (the latter is more fun for me). Of course, it still hurts.

So to well-meaning individuals out there, here’s my take on what NOT to say:

1) “You’re Fat/Overweight.” duh. I know that! No need to tell me the obvious. Most guilty of this are the sales aunties or sales ladies from China. Now, how is that an effective sales tool?

2) “Why don’t you wanna lose weight? You like being fat?” No, I don’t actually like being overweight. Neither do I hate it. It just… is. Of course, I don’t like the fact that good clothes are tough to find in Singapore. And that everyone is a size zero. Or that I get tired from walking up a flight of stairs.

3) “(Without any invitation) Here’s what you can do to lose weight.” Thank you but no thank you. I KNOW what to do to lose weight. I AM doing them. But isn’t going to happen overnight, so don’t expect instant results. I’m not about to become someone obsessed over my weight and looks just because society thinks I should. I am more than my weight.

4) “If you remain fat, you’re gonna die.” We’re ALL gonna die someday. Fat or not.

5) “If you’re like that, no guy will like you.” Now this annoys me. Firstly, not all guys are that shallow (as the person who said that thinks). Second, if a guy doesn’t like me purely based on my looks, well then, no loss of mine, right?

6) “You’ll be pretty if you lose weight.” I think I’m pretty now. And who says being skinny automatically makes you pretty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, isn’t it? And True Beauty is not what’s on the surface.

7) “I’m soooo fat! (Coming from a skinny girl’s mouth)” Excuse me? If you’re fat, than I’m what. Ginormous? Thanks a lot.

Now if I want to lose weight primarily to look pretty and have guys like me, then losing weight won’t work will it? But if I mainly want to lose weight because I wanna take care of this God-given body, then that’s more lasting.

So please, before you open your mouth, think before you talk.

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07January2009

Work Woes… Again

Maybe I’m being a whiney, ungrateful brat. I have a job and in this economic disaster, I should be glad I have financial security. And I am, at least when I remind myself of that fact.

But earning money hasn’t never really been my motivation to work (but having $$ is nice, I won’t deny). I work because I enjoy it, it challenges me and I learn and grow. That’s my joy in working.

And this job holds no more joy for me. The office politics and environment have changed dramatically since I first joined a year ago. Outside forces and internal management shifts have created an atmosphere that is stifling to work in. Everyday, I feel like I’m in a 4 x 4 brick box, and that’s all I can do in my work. Nothing creative, nothing adventurous, pointless.

I’ve become what I’ve dreaded: A paper-pushing, do-as-bosses-tell-me-to-do civil servant robot. And that is terrifying.

My “fun” projects are either cut or put on the backburner because of cost cuts and conservative, traditional bosses. All I’m doing now are pointless paper-pushing and anything I can get my hands on… which is barely enough to fill up an hour, much less a day. And of course I can’t use that empty time to do other things for myself, like read the newspapers, etc. because others gossip and spread comments like “She’s very free! No need to work ah.”

Sigh… my mom keeps reminding me to be grateful and that this is a God-given situation to teach me patience and other life lessons. I get that mentally. Tell that to my depressed spirit and heart.

Meaningless work is just that, meaningless. And a whole waste of precious time.

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21December2008

Present-less Christmas

christmas gifts Present less Christmas

I’m striving for a Present-less Christmas. Meaning I’m not going to buy presents for my family and friends, and I’ve told them I don’t except them to buy one for me either. I’ve only gotten some functional and useful presents for a dear blog friend and her family who truly need and deserve them. Oh and of course for my Compassion child.

Why am I doing this? Well, good question!

1. Presents have become the focus of Christmas, overshadowing the true purpose of Christmas. Plus, it’s fueled this whole commercialism of Christmas, which greatly annoys me.

2. We can better spend the $$ on people, not things. Like sponsoring a Compassion child or feeding the starving.

3. A lot of times I’m obligated to buy something for another person. And I end up buying something totally useless and a waste of $$.

4. It’s pretty easy for me to do this since my family stopped giving each other Christmas gifts since I was 7. Was never a big deal in my home anyway.

5. It’s just more stuff. And more stuff is not what most of us need.

Instead of presents, I’m advocating these:

1. It’s CHRISTmas. Not Xmas or Happy Holidays or Season’s Greetings.

2. I’m taking the $$ I would have spent on those many gifts and helping someone else. Time spent with that person, encouraging him/her is truly valuable.

3. Spend the precious time with loved ones, not  jostling in shopping malls, fighting the madness.

4. Proclaim the truth about Christmas. The only reason we even have Christmas is because of CHRIST.

5. Don’t just get into the “Christmas” spirit during Christmas. Do it all year round.

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19December2008

Giving Kudos to Bush

Of all my criticisms of George W. Bush, I do have to be fair. He was president during a very very very hard and testing time. If Clinton or Obama were president when 9/11 happened, would they be so popular? It is easy to stand at the side pointing fingers, but when thrown into situations like these, would they have done the same? No one knows.

It is important to note that not since the Great Depression and the American Civil War has a US president had so many crashing challenges and problems to deal with in their terms.

It is also important to separate the disagreement with the policies and things he’s done as President with the human being whom he is. As evident from this article, he knows he’s not well-liked. I bet he knew it would happen when he made those critical decisions early on in the wars. But he did it anyway. At least he had the guts to do something he believed was right, even knowing how others would use it to hang him out to dry. That’s more than I can say for politicians who make crowd-pleasing decisions to stay as a favourite.

Overall, I believe Bush did the best he could and knew how. He’s not perfect. Sometimes I think that people expect the President, or any leader for that matter, to be perfect. Any mistake they make is dissected, put under a microscope and criticised till death. We forget, no one is perfect. They are still human and I can guarantee you, they will make mistakes … and lots of them.

And now coming towards the end of Bush’s turbulent and highly stressful 8 years in office, I bet all he wants to do is to have an uninterrupted good night’s sleep.

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12December2008

Computer Support Humour